Funny.  3 years later....I have the same goals as my last post.
1.  Run a sub 2 half.
2.  Run 4:30 Full.
3.  Run sub 25 5K.
4.  *new*  lose 40 pounds.

So...how on earth am I going to accomplish these?  I think the first 3 will be the result of #4.  
I am sitting at all time high weight that I can't shake.  
I am currently training for the Chicago marathon...but minimally so except for long runs, mileage is not high.  
I have hired a personal trainer to help with strength.  I start with him on 9/16.  He has given me "homework" in the meantime.  

I will admit, I have low self-esteem with body image.  On the inside I feel like a runner, but my outside does not match my inside.  I am pushing a size 12/14.  I am slow due to weight.  I train hard but don't feel like I measure up sometimes.  I know I need to work on mental attitude...as John Joseph talks about with PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) but I just don't have it with my body.  Sounds like self-pity.  Maybe so.


So, how do I turn this around?  Not sure.  Maybe revisiting this blog and documenting with help keep my accountable.  Maybe paying the money for the trainer will help. 
But, here is a new day and a new post.